well now this is something shocking

but this weekend i've realized how depressed ive really been . and it hit me really hard. it started thursday

and all i can remember is i just didn't want to deal with friends and family ,work or future events.

i'm even considering canceling the nye party.

i'm in limbo right now and maybe me not spending time with friends and disappearing is not the way to go about it.

i think its just emotions and everything thats built up over the years and haven't had a good Vent (crying) in a long time.

Sometimes even the biggest optimist can be down .

Just hopefully ill find the light at the end of the tunnel