well now this is something shocking

but this weekend i've realized how depressed ive really been . and it hit me really hard. it started thursday

and all i can remember is i just didn't want to deal with friends and family ,work or future events.

i'm even considering canceling the nye party.

i'm in limbo right now and maybe me not spending time with friends and disappearing is not the way to go about it.

i think its just emotions and everything thats built up over the years and haven't had a good Vent (crying) in a long time.

Sometimes even the biggest optimist can be down .

Just hopefully ill find the light at the end of the tunnel

I Be That Man On The Moon

And Imma Do What I Do.

This Is The Beginning of the End

My Downward Spiral

And I Thought as you get older things would be simpler.

boy was i wrong.

I Never meant to fuck it up. i feel like were not done yet. dont give up on me.
cuz i wouldnt give up on you.

i just want you to be honest with me. thats all i ask from you

If looks could really kill, then my profession would be staring.

Well Ive Been Working,Sleeping And Video Gaming. Such A Hard Life Haha
Girls Have Taken The Back Seat As Of Late , Because I Honestly Dont Need A Headache Right Now.

Have Been Hanging With Rob Alot Last Week,Need To Hang With Tom & Eddie More Often.
Bumped Into A Few Familiar Faces also Which Was Great.

I Have No Insane or Crazy Stories Right Now but Im Sure Its Coming.


Also I Love How People Are Going Insane For THose Naked Rihanna & Cassie Pix.

& Get Ready Beach Party 09 Has Returned

What A Long Day

First I Leave The Clubhouse @ 6:30am Get Home @ 7:15

Only To Get A Call @ 9:30 To Come Into Work. I didnt Mind Cuz I Had To Be In @ 11 But It Sucked Not Getting Much Sleep. So I Worked Till 2 And Met Up With Angie & Anthony ,Grabbed lunch with them Watched Angie Get a Massage & did Some shopping. Didnt Get Home Till 8 & Made Dinner And Talked To Danielle For A Bit. Eventually Caught The Itis But For Some Reason I Woke Up Early Today Bah.

Today Will Be Highly Entertaining

The New Flesh

Sideways
Sometimes
Some things
Feel like
I'm on the other side
Give It To Me,I Can Take It.

The Worlds On Fire

And Its About To Expire.

Anyway Good things have been happening as of late, But i will be getting a tat sunday evening. maybe a piercing as well who knows.

But I went to see Prodigy and shit They were Amazing.
Fucked up part was A Couple Decided to bring their 6 month old baby to the concert.
That Baby Must be deaf cuz i was certainly deaf after it.


Rob is having a birthdy party next week which should be insane as usual.

Seriously ?

People Need To Relax A bit, Not Everyone Is Out To Get You.

I'll Leave you with A Quote From A Wiseman Named Tony :

This City Is One Big Pussy Waiting To Get Fucked

As Good As It Gets

Im Going To Dropkick/H20 Tonight Which will Be Awesome . I Think Last Time I Saw H2o was @ Blender With Bane.

Saturday will Be Bleeding Through with chug chug Accian Strain & Last Time I saw Bleeding Through Was @ Knitting Factory I believe.

Sunday & Monday Hall & Oats....Cant Wait


Ive Finally gotten over that cold (knock On wood) Maybe Its because I havent Touched A drink In Awhile . Oh And I Have A Stalker On Xbox Live ,Shes Cool But She Sends me Creepy Pictures Of herself.....Jesus.


Ok Let Me Get Back To Eating My Apples & Cinnamon Oatmeal.

Seacrest Out !

Move Bitch Get Out The Way

Well after Seeing Rihanna's Beatdown Picture , I Kinda Felt Bad For Her. But Then She Is Still Sticking With Him (which I think is just a ploy to save his career) I have No Sympathy for her Or any Other Female that sticks with a wife beater.

Which Leads Me to the following story .

I Went To go Celebrate Sean & Chris Birthday @ Webster hall and Bumped into a familiar face so we talked outside for a good hour while i waited for eton to get there.
So he arrives and we watch all these meatheads/guido's leaving webster hall leaving mind you Sean is probably drunk and Chris Is beyond wasted haha.
So while we wait for them to come outside A guy was yelling at his girlfriend saying you know who i am ? So eton and i look at each other like who is that guy haha.
I managed to hear some of the convo and basically he got pissed because she was talking to another dude.
So he Takes her phone and launches it up the block . She slaps him and tells him to get her phone and out of nowhere he says its there but while doing it he punches her in the face BAM haha

I sadly had my back turned when it happend but the way they described it still makes me laugh.

But the real sad part is she left with him.
And Women always complain they cant find the Right Guy , Well stop dating the wrong ones.

Sober Mike

Forever Is A Long Time

Well its Been Awhile since Ive Blogged (not that Anyone cares) but This Is my Form Of Therapy So fuck you . haha

Anyway Funny Thing Happened to me While Walking Home The Other Night , I Went To The Tea Lounge & A White Gentleman Approached Me Asking If He Knew Where He Can Score A Dub.
I Told Him No But To Go To Flatbush And After I Said That He Asked (and I shit you not) Where The Black People Were & I kinda laughed and replied Flatbush ....After That I said Welcome To Brooklyn .

On A Good Note : My Boys Came Back From Iraq Safe & Sound . Im Hanging with them Right Now As We Speak , Although Im Being Tortured By Their Singing Haha

On A Bad Note : As My Ear Drum Bleeds, I Think Im Done Trying With You , Also Certain People Need to Seriously Get a Life ,Dont Even Mention My Name. Forget Im even Alive.


2 Weeks Going Sober

Mike